I am looser, not the killer

Hey Bloggers! finally after a while, I am here again to write something. The toughest phase of my life is passed with the loss of closed ones. But, never I forgot those feelings, I used to feel for them, and those moments which we used to celebrate together. 

Ohh! damnn!! 

"Phir aapke nasseeb me yeh baat ho na ho, shayad fir iss janam me mulaaqaat ho na ho"

These goated lyrics always remind me of someone—my close ones whom I lost.
while i am with my fucking buds and this song is playing, the whole scenario forces me to think more and more that I AM THE LOSER.
I couldn’t save the people to whom I was attached, and even now I still carry some level of attachment with them.
But sadly, they are no longer here—and if they are, then they are no longer here for me.

Losers are not the ones who scored more, but the ones who scored less.
And I am a loser, not because I failed, but because I am not a killer.
I lost only a few people (my closest ones), not people in masses.