Escaping Eh!

 

He realized something very late in life 
that there was no one he could truly trust.

Not his family.
Not his cousins.
Not even the people who claimed to be close to him.

But wait… wasn't he an extrovert?
Aren’t extroverts supposed to be surrounded by people all the time?
Happy. Loud. Social.

Then how could he be lonely?

The truth is :
extroverts know how to talk,
but that doesn’t mean they know how to trust.

And slowly… very slowly…
that loneliness began turning into something darker.

Depression.

Yes. Even extroverts get depressed.

He tried loving people.
Tried believing in them.
But every single time, he ended up being the one left behind.

There was one friend he trusted the most.
One person he thought would stay.

But one day he realized something painful 
even she could not always be there for him.

And that’s when he stopped expecting.

He started learning how to live alone.

But living alone…
does it mean learning how to live with depression?

Maybe.

From the outside, he looked attractive, confident, expressive.
But inside… there was nothing.

Just emptiness.

And the strange thing was 
he didn’t even fully understand it himself.

So he escaped.

Into movies.

Into characters.

He watched films and tried to become those characters,
because their lives felt more meaningful than his own.

Maybe that’s why actors understand loneliness so well.

Because sometimes,
they live a thousand lives on screen…

while in real life
no one is truly there for them.

No one lives for him.

No one waits for him.

And sometimes it feels like
no one is even interested in talking to him.